EQUATIONS IN LIFE

i've made up my mind to be a strong-headed person no matter what.
i've broke a promise towards myself for not returning home w/o informing again. i felt rather guilty. my life this year is overwhelming, i realised that it had change drastically compared to my other times. i talked about studies and the future in oneself with bryan, i felt the importance in life real hard. i don't know if i would be strong enough to stand on my own feet and fight the battle independantly. all i know is, i need confidence.

received an email from my best friend. i felt touched, it was really sweet and reasonable despite what she feels that she was nagging. everything had been such a slam, unexpected things happened. i know what she means, i've thought about that many times before. probably i failed along the way. i miss you so much and we're meeting later. its like at last, i'm so glad. i miss those time you made my sunday blues disappear. laughing and shopping like madasses. thanks for caring, i really appreciated it. i hope you know that i'm always around thinking about how you are. i wanna call you up on my phone but my line of outgoing is off. i know there's house phone but its always missed, i apologise.

now on, studying is a must and i'm going to work my ass off next month. i need to sacrifice alot of time, i don't know if i'll be able to take the pressure. i need someone to push me strong, for the weak-ling person like me falter easily at times. good night.